Fear & Cynicism

I’ll never forget the moment everything changed for me.

It didn’t come after a business win.
Not some breakthrough.
Not a book, or a quote, or a perfectly-timed podcast.

It happened in a quiet room.
Just me and my therapist.
I was at rock bottom — emotionally done.
Stuck. Angry. Tired of trying.

He sat across from me, calm and still, and asked:
“What are you afraid of?”

I paused.
And then I said what I thought was the truth:
“I’m afraid of failing.”

He looked at me.
Didn’t flinch.
Didn’t soften it.
Just said:
“But… you’re already failing.”

I couldn’t speak.
I just sat there — maybe 30 seconds, maybe a full minute.

Then it happened.
The tears started flowing.
Not because of what he said.
But because of what I said next:

“I’m scared of being happy.”

He leaned back in his chair and simply nodded.
That was the moment.
Everything changed, everything made sense.

I saw the world for what it really is.
I saw myself for who I really am:

The master of limitation, The creator of my own world.

The Fear Beneath The Fear

Fear is sneaky.
It wears masks.

We create fear — and then we create another layer of fear about the fear just to pretend it’s not there.
It’s denial of the denial.

We talk about the fear of failure.
But for me, the real fear was this:
What if happiness does happen? How would I be judged?
Then what?

What if I had no excuse anymore?
What if things actually went well — would I be able to handle it?

So I sabotaged things before they started.
Doubted myself the moment it felt good.
Expected things to fall apart — just to soften the blow when they did.

And strangely, it felt comfortable.
Because even though I wasn’t happy, it was predictable.
I could predict and expect the limitation, it was familiar.

Even though I knew I prefer something more, I was afraid to move in that direction.

Because I had a greater fear of the unknown.

Cynicism Dressed As Intelligence

“There are none so blind as those who will not see.”

— Jonathan Swift

I rolled my eyes at new ideas.
Dismissed anything that sounded too hopeful.
Mocked optimism like it was a weakness.

But what I was really doing?

I was being selfish.

I was denying the world my own gift — due to my own cynicism.

We all have a gift.
But fear stops us from moving toward it.
Cynicism blinds us from even seeing it.

Cynicism became my shield.
A clever way to avoid hope — because hope meant vulnerability.
And if I hoped, and it didn’t happen, I’d feel pain.
So I cut it off before it could even begin.

Cynicism feels like strength.
But really, it’s just armour for an unhealed wound.

It blinds you to the new.

It convinces you that you’ve “seen too much.”

But most of the time, you haven’t seen too much —

you’ve just stopped wanting to see at all.

Here’s what I’ve come to understand:

Cynicism and gullibility are two ends of the same spectrum.

One accepts everything without question.

The other rejects everything without reflection.

Both are reactive. Both are rooted in fear.

Neither is grounded in truth.

The real power is in the balance

being open-minded enough to let something in,

but sceptical enough to discern if it resonates.

We’ve been taught the saying: “Seeing is believing.”
But the truth is: “Believing is seeing.”

Scientists are now beginning to understand that we live in multiple parallel realities.
So what you believe is what you perceive.

If you see the world negatively — you will experience it that way.

But here’s the deeper truth:

When you enter a place of knowing, you realise how little we truly know.

That’s where I found my power.

Because true abundance is this:

The ability to do what you need to do, when you need to do it.
Trust that what you need to learn will reveal itself when you’re ready.

The Turning Point

When I admitted I was scared of happiness — the spell broke.

That one sentence triggered a chain reaction.

I started seeing differently.
Acting differently.
I let go of control.
I started listening to my higher mind — that gut feeling.

And it started with honesty.
Not a strategy.
Not a routine.
Just raw, unfiltered truth — spoken aloud from within.

I’ve watched hundreds, maybe thousands of videos on “successful” people.
Everyone has their blueprint, their formula, their story.
Some of the most perceived successful people still haven’t faced their own fears yet.

For me the formula: “Follow your highest excitement to the best of your abilities, with zero expectations or assumption on the outcome”

Your expectation might be the floor of what’s possible, it’s about the journey not when you start.

But the best “advice” I ever received wasn’t advice at all.
It was that moment in the chair — when I turned inward.
And realised: the answer was never “out there.”
It was always within me.

You Become Successful When You Face Yourself

The moment you truly face your fears — that’s when you unlock something real.

You stop chasing approval.
You stop outsourcing your power to others.
You stop feeling guilty for being you.

You pat yourself on the back when you rise.
You hold yourself accountable when you fall.

And that’s when success starts to feel like peace — not pressure.

Because when you act from your highest excitement,

you don’t feel pressure — you feel joy.

We’re all artists.

Whether you launch with polished brilliance or a rough sketch,

it’s your journey — and that journey is valid.

Some of the greatest artists start simple,

move through layers of complexity,

and eventually return to simplicity —

but with depth, mastery, and presence.

This applies to every field.

Art. Business. Healing. Life.

You Always Had The Answer

Deep down, you already know what to do.

I’m saying this because once I truly faced myself — I stopped being afraid of the truth.

And I found something deeper than success:
I found my happiness.

Not because of a product.
Not because of validation.
But because I chose to stop being selfish with my gift.
To stop hiding it under fear.

EvoMone is just an expression of that gift.

It’s not the end goal — it’s part of the journey.
A symbol. A reminder. A bridge.
A chapter that embraced one of the universe’s greatest truths:
Change is a fundamental law — embrace it, but you will always exist.

That’s why “We are the currency”

A bridge from the old to the new.

So face your own fears,
and stop letting cynicism blind you from seeing what’s true for you!…

I’ll see you on the other side of the bridge.

The only thing to fear is fear itself. (Face yourself)